Homesickness is beginning to set in now. I miss my connection with the outdoors. I miss the feeling that working in the outdoors gives me. I miss acres of countryside around me. I miss that sense of space. I miss seeing the puppies grow.
But there is more that I miss besides the obvious.
I miss the attitudes of people who live in a s smaller place. I miss the direction that my thoughts turn to when I am at home, the plans that I have, to make things work.
Where I am staying now is definitely a different world, one that I don't entirely belong to and don't entirely not belong to, it is a strange feeling. I enjoy my work and, obviously, I need to earn money, but I just wish my work was not city based.
It is a blip, yesterday was a piss poor day and I felt very low coming home last night, watching the miserable faces and needing that hit that only home can give.
So, thank you to my fellow bloggers, because reading your blogs/comments seems to connect me back to my home in a way that I would not have believed possible a year ago. When the people around me don't seem to understand me, I know there is a whole community of people out there that does,
One needs the yang in order to appreciate the ying. Hang in there - not long to go... :)
ReplyDeleteHave a virtual hug me darling, its free of charge!
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ReplyDeleteI hope you have lots of better days until it's time to return home. It's evident from your posts that you made the right decision to come back North - your happiness when you're at home shines through in your writing.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was homesick at Uni I would do things that made me think of home (Cornwall). I made pasties, sang Cornish songs, even starting re-learning the language. Maybe you could do something that reminds you of home? Plant some seeds and give the resulting plants to your hosts when you leave. Go for a long walk in the countryside at the weekend.
ReplyDeleteWhen I lived in London we went to Henley-On-Thames, which was about half an hour by train from Ealing (where I lived). It has some beautiful countryside with a lot of public footpaths. Take yourself down there for a lovely day away from the city! :)
Chin up
ReplyDeleteHaving your own home feels to me like having a partner: it depends on me for maintenance and upkeep and the occasional improvement, and I depend on it for shelter and peace, a refuge from the crowded and noisy world, and a place for all sorts of creativity. So to be away from it like you are, it's as bad as missing a dearly loved person, isn't it? But it's there waiting for your happy return, and I hope the days go by fast for you until then.
ReplyDeleteYou are approaching the downward slope now, soon be time to go back to your lovely house with its beautiful views. You will appreciate it all the more for having been away.
ReplyDeleteYou're almost done with your assignment there, closer to the end anyway, and just keep that focus in sight. Look back at your blog and see how far you've come and what you've accomplished. And dream of the future, it will be here before you know it!!
ReplyDeleteWe are here for you! Dan, pop into my blog and leave a message if you would be interested in a give away. I had an organic veg box delivery for some time and have always collected their recipe leaflets in a ring binder they also provided. I never used these but would love to hand them on to someone that might appreciate them. If you`d like to be entered into the name draw on Thursday, just leave a quick message on my last blog entry. Take care, and we all look forward to your return to Lancs. xxxx
ReplyDeleteI can appreciate how you feel, because I would feel the same. Hope today was a better day for you.
ReplyDeleteHere's a smile for you. :) :o)
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Love from Mum
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Bless you. It will be over soon & you will feel such immense joy when you get home. The sort of joy only felt when you've had to go away and then go back. You will appreciate your beautiful home even more & I bet your resolve to make it all 'work' there will be strengthened too. Hang on in there, it'll all come good.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much everyone, that cheered me up no end. I have found a little window to come home in mid way, the 1st May Bank Holiday weekend, which will also be my halfway point, now I just have to find a decent ticket price, train is out, but the coach seems good. So just over a week to go then a break at home for 3 days.
ReplyDeleteI just had a couple of poor days, but I am raring to go again now and all is good!
Glad your feeling a bit better- I really enjoy reading your blog :)
ReplyDeletego to kew gardens on your morning off... I used to love it there.. big , green and peaceful!
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I feel for you. If I am in a place where I don't want to be, I can switch off from my surroundings and go to another place in my head. It takes practice. Just think of the lovely dosh you are earning, and how you can spend it on your house.
ReplyDeleteOver the hump now - so much to look forward too and there is nothing like some extra decent cash to take home.
ReplyDeleteDan - good advice from everyone here I think, and you have done one of the best possible things yourself by giving yourself some time back home to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to say - I read your blog months ago but then for some reason lost track of it - and now I have found it again, to find you have completed your dream of moving back to Lancashire! I am SO pleased for you. I also really enjoyed your 3-part life story as I was catching up on your blog.
I hope this spell of homesickness passes.
Suppose you've got to experience the downs to appreciate the ups even more.
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